Thursday, January 08, 2009

School. Memories


Man, even though its barely a year but I've already missed school. Actually I started missing school since the beginning of SPM. Its kind of sad actually. Yeah. it is. I don't know. Yesterday I was up late. Again. Then, I just stared at the kitchen and the house. Flashbacks happened. I never really thought that flashbacks can actually happen in real life. I thought its all just in the movies.

I remember the times I woke up early and put on my uniform. Grumble that Wayne didn't get my lunch ready. Or finding my cute lunch ready on the table. Packing my bags last minute. Giving Faith a head rub before leaving for school. Skipping off to school despite the morning mood. Talking to myself or singing to myself on the way to school.

All the memories are just too good not to remember. Coming into the compound and walking straight to where our class gang was. I missed 2008. Honestly, one of the best years I had. Thanks to my B class. Seriously, out of all the friends I so called have, they've really been there for me. Like when you are in a bad mood, they really feel bothered by it. Like when I go to school really emo, Koshin and Yogesh sitting behind us will keep bugging me about it.

Well, of course, I also have Kevin la. He is the one that's been the MOST supportive out of all my friends. Really when I'm really down, there's no one I'd think of first than Kevin. Just thinking of him actually makes me want to laugh. No, I don't have any secret feelings towards him, just friends, that's it. I'm not that crazy to like people out of my league anymore. His an awesome friend though. =)

Well, I'm still as bored as ever. Nothing much can do. Want to get a job but can't really find a nice one. Can't really find one now anyways. Cause I might be heading off to Singapore and I don't know the way to ask for leave. So, I'll just wait till I get back from Singapore. OR! I can just get a job at Singapore and don't come back at all. But, I don't want to leave mom and Faith alone. Cause this year, Wayne's getting his scholarship at USM. He might be going to Penang.

I know Faith will drive mom mad if they are alone. Hahax... So, I guess, I can't really go anywhere can I? Malaysia, I'm here to stay! Sadly. Hahax.. Oh well, I guess I can handle it. After that its college. I actually don't feel any weird feelings towards it but, I don't know. Its still different than school. I still miss my school. =( A LOT.

I've learn alot of things in school. Things I'd never learn if it wasn't for school. I'm glad I went. Also to mention this is the only school that I stayed and graduated from. Yeah. I never really had any childhood memories. I mean back when I was with my dad. From all the school memories I have that I can remember, its 2008 at most. And of course 2004-2008. But, I mean, 2008 really gave me a big impression of life.

Family problems. Friends and even crushes. Hahax.... Feels kind of stupid now that I think of it. Liking someone that isn't right and not even meant for you. I mean, I should have spent those agonizing thinking days studying ot Arashi-ing. Instead. Hahax... Feels really stupid now. But, that's all change I guess. People's words. All the promises. They are made to be broken.

Its amazing how one person can be so sweet infront of you but behind your back, they are a totally different person. Don't worry. I've changed too. I might be a twinge more postivie and probably feeling a bit better of myself. But, other than that, I'm still the same. No, I haven't move on to drinking, smoking and drugs. Just starting to put lip gloss and being more self involved. Hahax... My mom thinks I'm vain. I probably am.

I'm not going to think much about others anymore. Not many people to think about actually. Mostly, I won't be so paranoid either. Not going to like, "Shit man, I hurt that person" "OMG, I hope she doesn't remember me" or things like that. I'm used to being disliked. Don't really know why but its okay I guess. Maybe I'll find a place like Forks and find my very own Edward Cullen. Hahax... Hey, its not wrong to dream you know? Hehe....

But back to reality, I guess I'll just stay by myself for a while. Single is actually cool cause you can ogle over guys and don't feel bad about it. Yes, after figuring out that I like 'lala' people, my choice of men is more strict. Hahax... Funny right? Hehe... Oh well, Ariff and Phang has started college. Basket balls! So lucky. Though, I wouldn't want to start so early anyways.

Did I mention how cute Tegoshi Yuya is? From News and he isn't that old. =) Really. I like how he smiles. Yes, another main point that I want from guys is the way they smile. Cause smiles make another smile. Hehe... And I L-O-V-E his smile. Well, not as much as Nino and Robert Pattinson. XP



He looks abit like Joon huh?

*blink blink*

Oh well, I guess I can skip all the emo and meaningless rambling now. Man, can't wait for Uta no Oniisan to start and then lots of other awesome movie coming out this year. I hope they'll let me in the cinema to watch Angels and Demons even though I haven't exactly reach 18 by then yet. Must remember to wear heels and short skirt. Hahax... Neh, I guess that doesn't work anymore. Hmm....

Anyways, what I'm waiting for this year? Yatterman. Since its out in Arena I guess that it will be airing in Malaysia in March. Reminds me of the long wait of Hana Yori Dango Final Movie. Almost screamed my lungs out. Hehe.... Oh, since I'm sitting on a wooden chair as my computer chair, I said that IF I EVER read on news that Arashi will be coming down to Malaysia, I will fall like an anime character and probably have a concussion. Well, at least my brother is a medical student. Hehe...

I'm trying hard not to put my hopes up to high. Cause the voting in PopRainbow shows that News leading and Kat-Tun following after. My head is still itching to know who will be coming down though. I some how don't feel like its Arashi. I don't know cause they don't really do tour's in August. Only in Japan I suppose. Well, I can only wish right? Its all up to Johnny-san and probably Jun. Hahax... Must message him on the cheap fruits in sale in Malaysia. Hehe...


Oh! I was watching Wei Xiao Pasta on 8TV that day with my mom and I was eating... Fried Chicken I think. I was staring at the TV and I suddenly chocked on my food. The only reason that I'd give such a big expression is because of... yes, Arashi. Hahax... I saw their poster~!! I wanted to pause the TV but, obviously you can't do that. My mom thought I was having a seizure. Hahax... Check it out. So big okay? Can you see the word ARASHIC? I can!!!! Hehe...


Anyways, I'm also waiting for Harry Potter. I apparently did not watch the last movie. I was debating with my brother about it. I really don't remember watching it. Geez. My head's just so weird. Hahax... What else? Erm... Oh, Wedding War? Or was it Bride War? I can't wait to watch it. If I'm not mistaken, its Anne Hathway. I love her. Then there's Little Ashes which I don't think will be airing in Malaysia cause there's gay love. And Summerhouse! The last two movies are starring Robert Pattinson!!! ^^

Of course the last much awaited is New Moon! Even though I know it will probably be cencored again but I just want to watch. After all, I missed Twilight. And I think someone threw my DVD away. Oh well. Will wait for the original. Another plus to the movie is that Taylor is still Jacob. He is cute. Hehe... And, they will also be filming straight Eclipse. Wow. A very hectic year indeed.

I'm actually kind of scared of this year. Especially on the count of mom's Feng Shui. I'm not really a believer of these kind of things but you know. Its still something that you can't get your mind off after hearing something like that. I'm damn worried over mom's safety. Especially, according to Lillan Too, mom's 5th month is trouble. Haihx... I'm terrified. Mom came home late from yesterday because of meeting and I felt like my tummy were going to pull its own guts out.

Haihx... I know I'm over reacting but I'm the kind of person that can't take a loss of someone loved. I'd probably be traumatised my whole life. Literally. Traumatised. I'm trying very hard to
just ignore the love I have to caring of others but I can't. Especially when they say such nice things to you and then do the opposite.

I guess I am still affected by all the 'I will miss you after school' and all that crap but then they don't even send you a message or a nudge or whatever. At this point if I was talking to Kenneth or Kevin for that matter, they would say sometimes, you have to make the move. Hmmm... So far, the ones that make the move is never me. Unless I'm ranting to Wan Ying. That well... Hehe. I'm like the bench warmer of life. When they have no one else to talk to, they will suddenly talk to me kind of thing. Hahax.. I get that alot.

Well, I'll continue bench warming.

"Sensei, shukudai onegai!!!" I miss my school. =(

Current Addiction : Arashi, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ohno Satoshi's voice, Sakurap, Koichi Arike, Twilight, Robert Pattinson, Bleach.

Currently Tuning into : Real Face - Kat-Tun

Currently Watching : Anything Arashi, Bleach, Twilight.

Currently Downloading : -

Currently Searching : A way to get Arashi down to Malaysia, The concert where Nino's pants keeps falling, A gun to shoot those mother fuckers, a ticket to Japan, a way out of Malaysia, a job, money.

Currently hate : Rumors and tabloids, Bitches at Lence London Sunway Pyramid, Death, time and the internet line.

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posted by Mei Xin at 16:23