Friday, November 13, 2009

<3


A bond. =)

Aiyak. So long never update my blog. Haha... Actually had a lot of unfinished drafted post. Well, contents are so different than how I am feeling now, so... I shall re-write. Hehe... Okay, update on the blogger. Assignment due dates are nearing and I am still stoning. Haha... IACT PARTS's soft launch is also nearing and Mama's birthday! Can't wait for all these awesome events.

So, yeah. Will be very busy next week. Still! I will forever have time for the dirty secret and the awesome friends. Waha! Hehe... Anyways, a little recap of whatever that has happened. Oh! The big brother is coming home next week! Yay! Coming home for his graduation and ma birthday! I'm a hell a excited for the events! His also coming back for Comic Fiesta in December and a week for Christmas!!!

What else? Hmm... Oh! Sorry to Kevin last night was a little tipsy with all the beer and shots. Haha... Yesterday was Su's performance at MardiGras. Yes, I went there, again. Hahahahaha... First time Su's band performed at Mardi. Also, got to see Blisters again. Julio? *slurp* Sexy crazy boy. Hahahaha.... Their band was awesome and rocked the hell out of Mardi man. Total hard core rock. I like bands that drink before they perfrom*coughAARcough*

Su calls them Jonas Brothers because Julio totally looks like Joe Jonas. No joke, oh but he is totally much better looking, and louder. Hehe... Su's performance was the bomb of the night, seriously. Quote from many people, "No one knows how to party as hard as IACT!". Fucking proud yo! Whoever said that you need alcohol and drugs to keep you happy missed out the fact that what makes a person most happy is the awesome company and great music, of course, the alcohol is a bonus. Hehe....

Had a great night last night. Never went to a concert before but sure felt like I was at one. Pictures are all in Dom's camera because I was lazy to take pictures. Hehe... Did alot of funny dances with the gals and the did an IACT made mosh pit infront of the stage. IACT rocked MardiGras like crazy. When we left, it was like dead silence. Power man, IACT. Went for supper after that with Alwi, Esty and Praveen.

Today, went out with the bestie to Pyramid. As you can see, we bought a friendship bracelet, from Diva of course. Hehe... Had Tutti Frutti and Wendy's for lunch. Hahahaha... Went shopping for mama's birthday present. Walked around and went clothes fitting at Kitchen. Haha... WE are bored people! I got a top for myself though. Oh, I got contacts. =D




There is this dress I totally want to get from Kitschen! This yellow one. Told mama and she says its really nice. Will get it for big brother's grad. =D Can wear for clubbing too!!! Bought, the other top today. Felt so proud for shopping for myself the first time! Mama, didn't complain too because I used my own money!! ^^



Thanks bestie, for the great day. Really missed hanging out with you talking about fangirl stuff and any random shitz that comes out from our little tiny brains. Haha... Thanks for the Tutti Frutti and the ride. Would love to this more often. Christmas shopping in December? =)

Speaking of hanging out with friends, one of my happiest moments in 2009 was finally seeing the son, Kenny at Pyramid! Damn miss him wei! The last time I saw him, he had NO hair! Now, he looks damn yeng! So proud of my spawn. Hehe.... He had always been there for me and its great to see him happy with his friends after exam. Hehe....

Another great bumping into was meeting my Andy kor today! He looks so sparkly and healthy now! He also just finished his exams. Still as leng chai as ever la my ah kor. Happy happy! I haven't seen him for months. =( Glad to hear that he has stopped his habit and that is definately getting healthier, the difference was damn obvious. I'm so happy for him and at least another thing that I don't have to worry about. =)

Yes, alot of little things make me happy. Even if it was just seeing them for 5 minutes, its all worth my time. I love all these people, really. I also don't want to bother certain people so, I kind of deleted their numbers, still, do feel free to message or call me. I'll come if you matter to me, if not, you get the picture. I learn to give attention to those that matters and mean something.

I'm currently totally extremely very seriously addicted to The All American Rejects!!!!! No, I did attend any of their concerts, as in MTV World Stage and Digi but, I don't know how it happened. I guess I was bored and looked them up. After that, I totally fell in love with Nickolas Wheeler! Haha... I wouldn't mind getting the AAR tattoo man. Looks damn awesome! *steals Tyson's necklace*




I totally adore this picture. Haha...

I find it really funny how I like guys base on their smiles. Really, if you want to get to me, you must have an awesome smile and good hair. Haha... Ben Ben has a nice smile and laugh. Haha... Reasons why I like to hang out with him, he makes me happy. Of course, the bestie, dirty secret, son and the college friends have the same effect! Hehe... But, people always ask me what kind of guy would I prefer.

Of course the dude must me taller than me even when I wear heels. *Laughs at Foong* Nice smile. Great sense of style. Speaks English, if you speak Chinese to me, fucking kick your balls. Lol. Can depend on me as I depend on him. Of course, mutual understanding is important. Space is allowed. HAHAHAHAHA.. Its like a dream relationship that everyone wants. But, I'd rather just be with myself. Hehe....

In other fangirl news, me two fave boys in a movie! Another sort of like Ryusei no Kizuna movie. Lovely. Can't seem to find it though. *glares at internet*

Anyways, I think its about time, I get serious on studying. Meanie's been poking me on doing my assignments before hand in dates. *pouts* Yes, my lecturer is very nice. There's the news feature to do, interviews, surveys and photoshoots to be done! *bangs head on the table* I'm okay, will be strong. *takes deep breath and squeezes stress ball* I find I work well when there is no pressure, but a little pressure won't be so bad. =)

Well, will update soon I suppose. My life is basically, college, work, sleep, college, work, clubbing, sleep, college, work, drinking, sleep. Oh, of course there is alot of eating as well. *stares at bank account balance as I eat* And, I always wonder where my money went. Hehe....

Current Addiction : Arashi, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ueda Tatsuya, Ohno Satoshi's voice, Jin Akanishi's voice, Sakurap, College, Kat-tun, All American Rejects.

Currently Tuning into : Top of The World - All American Rejects

Currently Watching : Anything Arashi +Kat-Tun+AAR.

Currently Downloading : Anything Arashi + Kat-Tun, Guest of Room #0.

Currently Searching : A way to get Arashi down to Malaysia, A gun to shoot those mother fuckers, a ticket to Japan.

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posted by Mei Xin at 20:22


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Another crack to the heart


*Stitching in progress*

"If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right"

Everything takes time to heal. Wound, memories, injuries even a broken heart. Disappointment has been a part of my life thats larger than anything else in my life. Family, friends even strangers. Well, we have to live with it right? Complaining never helped. I've gotten myself to learn that in college. I guess college does make you mature a little. Well, just some I suppose. Some would rather live in their kiddy years.

This pass months made me really see what kind of people everyone is. Positive and negative. I'm not going to say anything here cause I don't want to be involved with all the gossips and backstabbing. I'm sick of that, and all the loud noises. So, I'm just going to curl my fist and bite my bottom lip while taking in a deep breath. I feel like a saint.

Work, is something I can't wait to get back to. Back to Diva, earning a living and observing people outside. I need more stuff to do and THANK GOD assignments are all coming in already. At least, I can ignore my stupidity of being emotional due to the big brother's departure to Kepala Batas and ignorant people. I'd either have to find new headphones for the handphone or fix my mp4 so I can block out the annoying noises.

My patient level is decreasing. Crap, I think its due to all the unhealthy intakes. I shall not eat so much.... Lol. Most of pay ended up going to food. Jaya One is killing my wallet. So much for outings. Oh, no more clubbing for me now. I don't want to leaved the mother at home alone. So, I think, I'll quit midnight outings and stick to working, studying and accompanying the mother. Healthy, boring but in some ways more educational. Lol.

I need to work on the responsibilities thing in me. No offense, but compared to me, the big sister is more useless than me. WHAT?! Its the truth! Well, we share the chores... Like.... 90-10? Haha... Sometimes I do get lazy but its also because of late night works, oh, I'm afternoon shift this whole week!!!!, classes and long traveling. Damn! I think when CREACTIVE starts, I'll have eye bags like Meanie!!!! Sounds horrifying but its a good training.

Which reminds me! I need to refresh my Adobe skills. Can the lappie take it?! Its not my laptop anyways... *sneers at big sister* Haihx... Well, that IS what younger sister's are for. To be bullied. Lol. Maybe its a way of showing affection. Hah! I'm giving excuses to my own complains! I'm so lame that I have to console myself. Why am I blogging again?

Okay, hearing all my babble of my sad pathetic and currently blah life is starting to bore even me, the one living it. Interesting news, finally got to find the latest Galaxie issue and read the article on the beloved Stormy Boys. TEN YEARS just for them to get a SMALL, TINY and so unsatisfying article. Sad. But, oh well, at least there's an article of them. Fuck! Can't you at least give us a poster?! *flaring nostrils* Doubt you can see the difference, my nose is too small.

Oh, I'm sure some people would want to hear the boring love life that this person that's mindlessly typing have. Well, to be honest.... Its a secret. =) A growing process that probably won't go anywhere. But, I find, the best relationship to have with him is being close to him and seeing him happy. So, I don't have to be his girlfriend, he has my heart now. As the 'friend', I'm really happy.

Yeah, relationships do require physical attention but I guess to me, it doesn't really matter unless I meet one that gets serious. For now, its just to keep me happy and him happy. At least, I have someone to call when I'm bored. Yeah, which I have to cut down due to freaky message from Digi. Uuugh, must be pay back because I laughed at their spam mail. What?! It was really stupid! I just couldn't help myself!

PR tutorial today? We watched :



Good movie. I didn't fall asleep. Well, how can you when you have Ben Afflek and Kai Tzin grabbing your arm at every suspense moment?! Lol. Have to write a mini review on the moview regarding the PR strategies used by Russel Crowe's character. Oh, ate a whole packet of popcorn in that minuscule 2 hours. Or was it and hour forty five? Either way, had a lot of popcorn. Hehe....

Well, tomorrow will be a lecture. Sadly, it isn't as fun as Socio where you learn about sexuality. Funny subject that one. Well, I shall do my best this sem. Did average in the first sem. Time to buck up and get that perfect 4.0 like the big brother. To say I shall not cry is impossible. Just getting a message saying good night makes me all teary eyed. I miss my big brother. =(\


Current Addiction : Arashi, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ueda Tatsuya, Ohno Satoshi's voice, Jin Akanishi's voice, Sakurap, College, Kat-tun, Seto Kouji.

Currently Tuning into : I Wanna - All American Rejects

Currently Watching : Anything Arashi +Kat-Tun, Bleach, My Girl, Gokusen 2.

Currently Downloading : Anything Arashi + Kat-Tun.

Currently Searching : A way to get Arashi down to Malaysia, A gun to shoot those mother fuckers, a ticket to Japan.

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posted by Mei Xin at 23:24


Monday, October 19, 2009

The feeling of your touch is unexplainable


Happy Diwali people!

So, work has been really fun lately. Well, positively, sales are increasing. Negatively, there is this annoying young boy named Foong that finds it really fun to disturb me. I shall never give him sweets again. Kidding. He's a really nice guy. *rolls eyes* If only he would stop calling me Mrs. Ben. Oh wait, he calls me Mrs Lim now. Lol.

Anyways, before my boring life story, let me just not that... BANDAGE IS FUCKING AWESOME! Okay, fine, the trailer is just so arousing! Akanishi Jin won over the rest of my heart just by that. I mean please, he speaks sexy English, has the face and the attitude of an arse but hey, that's humane right? A must watch! Mahai, it had better screen in Malaysia or I'm going to protest to the end of the world of how lame our country is.

Well, it is kind of understandable that Jin is X-rated. Still, give us virgins the satisfaction! Lol. Seems like an awesome story line. Anyways, Jin solo singing. I shall contemplate on buying the single. *stares at decreasing money in bank account* No, never mind. Hehe... To make sure I do not get a nose bleed, I shall sign out YouTube. Lol...

@$#R@#%$#RWER



Aaah, Yoyogi san from Buzzer Beat. =)

Holy shit even when he is emo he is hot.




*dies*

In other fan girl news, ARASHI's featured in Galaxie this month and apparently a Malaysian Mag, Klik. I shall visit the bookstore soon! Also, dramas, seriously, are they trying to kill me by the over exposure?! Dramas, specials and worst! NTV 50 hours?! 7 days non stop of Arashi. I think I'm running low on blood.

To add to that, Arashi is now vs Kat-Tun in Channel V's Jpop vs Kpop. I ain't voting anymore. You can't make me chooose!!!!!

Well, with fandom killing me and crazy daily activities, I'm still hanging in there. I miss the big brother like hell. He messages every night but still. Its different you know. I try not to be alone at home cause it makes the house feel emptier than it already is. Picture frames are not where they are suppose to be. Faith's acting weird too. Refuses too go for walks. Like... Hmm? A dog, doesn't want to go for a walk. Either that or she's afraid of the dark.

Feeling abit sick too. But, of course I'm not allowed to complain. It kind of sucks when you all was have to be submissive to the elders. No, even worse when guys you like prefer the other sibling. Well, I'm used to it no matter how painful it is. At least I know the someone messages me more though. Hehe... He'd better!

I'm sort of with someone but yet not. Definately not available but, I'm not going to let myself in a relationship either cause I feel like the more I love a person, the more they will leave. As sick as it sounds, I'm doing fine on my own. These minuscule desires are being pushed to the back of my head. Okay, I'm just being stubborn and not letting people in but I find it less problematic than being let down. I'm already dealing it at home, no more please.

Anyways, just a short update cause I am bored. Will update soon I guess. Haha.. Depending how bored I am.

Current Addiction : Arashi, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ueda Tatsuya, Ohno Satoshi's voice, Jin Akanishi's voice, Sakurap, College, Kat-tun, Seto Kouji.

Currently Tuning into : With Me - Sum41

Currently Watching : Anything Arashi +Kat-Tun, Bleach, My Girl, Gokusen 2.

Currently Downloading : Anything Arashi + Kat-Tun.

Currently Searching : A way to get Arashi down to Malaysia, A gun to shoot those mother fuckers, a ticket to Japan.

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posted by Mei Xin at 23:57


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Will never say goodbye


It sucks when you have to go through separation in life. Even if its not permanent. Even if you can still contact the person. Watching them leave is like the hardest thing ever. Even if I didn't want to cry, I did. I wanted to smile and just act strong but I couldn't.

The big brother has gone to Kepala Batas to work at USM for two years. I didn't want to be so emotional about it. I mean, its not that far right? But, i ended up breaking that barrier that was partially built. I guess I didn't build it fast enough.

Thanks Kevin for the ride. Sorry to bother you. And Ben, I called him and messaged him alot today. Must be bothersome for them.

Its really great to have Ben around, of course, as a friend but I still can't get myself to rely much on him. I'm still trying my best to push all my trust away from a person because I don't want to get disappointed by them again. High school is already too much for me. I can't take that shit anymore. Considering the big brother is not around anymore, I don't have enough mental support.

Went home before coming to college and I really couldn't take it. Even though, he normally isn't home at this time but I can still feel the emptiness and most importantly, the never ending dead silence. Its painful and scary to be at home now. How will I survive night shifts if he's not around to pick me up? Who's going to quarrel with me over small little things. Its just been 4 hours but I miss him like hell. Haihx...

Its worse than not meeting Joe Sinn all these months. I don't know if I can smile and laugh sincerely anymore. Its not like his dead but still, the distance is something I can't take. That is why, no boyfriends for me. I'd rather be alone. As long as I'm not close to a person, they leave I'm fine by it. Uuugh... I don't know what will happen to me when Ben leaves. =(



Bored and sad. Therefore I shall play CS.

Current Addiction : Arashi, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ueda Tatsuya, Ohno Satoshi's voice, Jin Akanishi's voice, Sakurap, College, Kat-tun, Seto Kouji.

Currently Tuning into : Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus

Currently Watching : Anything Arashi +Kat-Tun, Bleach, My Girl.

Currently Downloading : Anything Arashi + Kat-Tun.

Currently Searching : A way to get Arashi down to Malaysia, A gun to shoot those mother fuckers, a ticket to Japan.

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posted by Mei Xin at 15:58


Monday, October 05, 2009

Beauty of Life


Life is pretty much exposing its beauty to me through dreams. Hah! Therefore, life is beautiful in my dreams. Haha... The thing about life is, to see its beauty, you have to experience its ugliness. I guess I have to start realizing that cute boys are no longer part of this world's beauty. Damn, I can't. Hahaha....

Anyways, last week has been phenomenal. In some ways. Its actually been a boring week but certain events made it awesome I suppose. No boredness will beat this week. Its only the start of the week and I'm exhausted. Woke up late today and almost missed class. Haha... Its amazing how your ears can dis-function itself just because your body doesn't want to wake up.

No, it wasn't hang over. It was just night shift work and too much chocolate. Haha... Tomorrow I'm having class and later night shift again. Omg. Wednesday is like MORNING class! I'm going to snooze everywhere! To add to that, PR and Sociology assignment hasn't begun a step and I'm creeping myself out. Everyone's like when can we have the discussion but at the end, we always fall off track. I need to slap myself to realize that time is still running and it ain't stopping anytime soon.

Anyhooooooooo~ Last week, SyokShyok grand launch and Malaysia Today's Grand Launch at MardiGras. Totally lost my voice there. We were kind of early so.... Yeah, we straight went up for shots at the bar. Haha... Therefore, I was only a tomato at the beginning of the night and was totally sober the rest of it. High on adrenaline though. Should have drank more. Esty was amazing that night. She performed solo, with An Honest Mistake and even rapped with the Segi college rapper that was like... Wow. He's black by the way. Sexy. Haha....

See... I wasn't that red~! Hehe... Quite red la. Haha....

Anyways, other than that, a very Happy Birthday to the beloved Ueda Tatsuya from Kat-Tun! I love you the very much! Haha.... Hope he had a great one! ^^


Now, its back to the Korean Drama, My Girl, sleep, class, meeting, work, kick Ben, class, MardiGras, class, work, and lots of lots of stoning time.


Current Addiction : Arashi, Ninomiya Kazunari, Ueda Tatsuya, Ohno Satoshi's voice, Jin Akanishi's voice, Sakurap, College, Kat-tun, Seto Kouji.

Currently Tuning into : Ai no Uta - Koizora

Currently Watching : Anything Arashi +Kat-Tun, Bleach, My Girl.

Currently Downloading : Anything Arashi + Kat-Tun.

Currently Searching : A way to get Arashi down to Malaysia, A gun to shoot those mother fuckers, a ticket to Japan.

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posted by Mei Xin at 17:49


Sunday, October 04, 2009

Tanjoubi, Tanjoubi~!



Happy birthday to the boy I will love till the end. Wait, its not his birthday! It's Tacchi's birthday!!!! Huhu~

Happy birthday to the man I'd love to marry. Your now same aged as my sister!!! Haha... Happy 26th,baby! Have a great one and keep writing and composing those awesome songs! Keep smiling cause your smile means lots to others! ^^

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posted by Mei Xin at 11:05


Saturday, October 03, 2009

Random Love Moment.

Dear diary,

We conversed and stared at each other in the eye.

Life is good.


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posted by Mei Xin at 23:02